SABO!!

ahahhahaha. i sabo my baby to take part in the......



He hates me. :(

eh wait, life is short. if he can get in i'll be damn happy. cos when other gals goes like. "eeew, he's cute!"

then i can proudly say "HE"S MINE BITACH!!"

AHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

sorry baby, pls fullfil my desire. =X

LOVE YOU TO BITS!!

Happy belated 6months baby!! ouch, i haven being blogging much nowaday. hahahs. cos i'm lazy you know. lol.

lately was kinda pissed with somethings. i left my skates in the shop for months. i think like 3 months? when i come back, my skates are dismented. yea was piss. i did not blame anyone, wow i'm so nice. well, i did indeed kick a little princess temper and throw my skates ard. asking anyone if they have any fucking idea abt the whereabout of my screws! guess what!? when i'm home, i found out that my wheels are changed also. cool. that someone wan my old wheel lei.. FUCK THAT MOTHER FUCKER THIEF!!

oh well, appearingly some people are not happy with me kicking a big fuss over my lose of stuff that suppose to be in their responsiblity. then next time pls put a big banner behind ur storage area "PLS PUT UR STUFF AT UR OWN RISKS, WE ARE NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR ANY LOSS OF STUFF. OH BUT YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE IF OUR SHOP RENTAL STUFF IS LOST. THANKS!"

come to think, they sure would be the one who kicking a big fuss if the things that are lost belong to the shop. ya da ya da. then push responsiblity here and there, trying to find a scapegoat.
i seriously doubt the working abilty and sense of RESPONSIBILITY. you know why, if anyone feels apologistic for the items loss even if they are not responsible for the loss, they would offer to help instead i just recieves a word, "so you are blaming me la?" i replied.
"no i'm not, i'm just asking you. when things is lost, who should i ask or ans for it?" that person when dumb. ha, the place under ur supervision, is so "well protected". cool.

seriously i'm lossing the feeling of how it feels last time, one big family, having fun and outings and caring for each other. it's nv the same anymore. everything change, and not for the good. scew it! sick and tired.

all written here are not pointing fingers at anyone. it's only my personnal thinking and experience i had. thus, no names nor company are stated.
if anyone feels rage upon reading this, it is plainly the guilt messing ard. :)

i have no idea, how.

to make you feel better
to make you feel me better
to see me doing my best
to show you i'm doing my rights
i need you to see.

you didnt like me, doing all those stuff. i tried skipping it down and not show i really want to. i'm afraid to see the unhappy face of urs if i go ahead. i hate to see you getting upset cos of what i wanted to do. i never want to get into arguement because of those little things. i care for your feelings. and yes i lied. i lied at that very moment just to make you feel better. and i hide in a corner pondering whether i should or should not make myself satisfy. sometimes i just dont know how to open my mouth and ask for it, all i do is quietly made in action. and sorry, maybe i should be straight forward and tell you.

i went quiet when you question me, i hate this feeling. i didnt mean it.

i'm more then happy to see you being supportive of what i want to do. rather then thinking for yourself just because you didnt like it.

at least, i'm doing things not against the rules, not betraying nor anything else.

i hope you understand.

sorry for being hursh.



i actually wanted to write something happy, for i'm glad i have you.
but maybe, sometimes love isnt something that's great enough to prove.
but still, baby i really love you.

baby

yea!! baby's bdae coming in a month time. heeheehee. :)

happy!

must earn money to get stuff for him.
muahahas

working IT show with baby. then super import nite! might miss out F1 cos i'm going genting!!

feels like pre-honeymoon trip. hahahs. but genting. @.@ i wan go taiwan!! save money!!

tata. off to bed now.

now the phone with baby to sing me lalluby. ahahahs. sweet!

NITES EVERYONE!!

EMO

i cant sleep, for goodness sake. Insomia ah, due to having too much things stored in my brain. i have zero confidence for exams. i have zero confidence with myself.

reason being, i have no heart for school. no heart for anything.

no events, no works, no money. i'm stressing out my hair till it kinda thinning at dangerous rate. i have no idea what am i talking about. i'm smoking my lungs out at this wee hour. i have no idea why my head feels heavy and my heart feels cold. i kinda feels alone. not the loneliness, but the still air make me try to shout out for help but nothing comes out of my throat.

i miss my life, the happening one that i have hopping for the next day. maybe it's much exciting that why. fuck.

welcome to my emo world in the wee night. i'm entertaining myself till i start feeling dizzy at alarming rate. cool.

my aims for this hoildays:

earn money ah, got what job do what job ah. ( i have limitation since i have a bf ) (yes i wanna go pub work, fast money -.-)
go overseas
shopping therpy ( badly need one but what to do? fuck the money-minded world) (i wanna get a sewing machine and sew my own clothes!)
retake my paper that i fail in this exam (pray hard i have)
ENJOY MYSELF!! I"M STRESSING OUT!! MY MAIGAIN COME BACK HUNT ME ALR!!
snap back to reality and back to school.

my blogger.

blogger got problem.

i'm sick. sobs sobs.

Hi all, after mia for so so long. i decided to write something. ahahahahaha!!

there you go......

SOMETHIING

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA. ok not funny.

i'm sick. down will stomach flu and fever. i'm feel like vomit till now. how how how. T.T

it's all baby's fault la. He food poisoning also pass to me the fever bug. hahhaah

k i wan go shit alr. -.-